Perhaps you or someone in your family desperately needs to seek help with an addiction; below are some places to start. Yes, START. Until you make a decision there will be no change in your life.
This page is not only addressed to the addict but to the family and friends of the addict as well. You need support, education and truth.
Do you feel like at times you're the one who feels crazy? You must be the one who doesn't understand and you're the one who is making this substance abuse way more than it is. It's not you; it's the craziness of living in the world with an addict. Many of the programs listed in the Recovery section have companion programs for family and friends. You need to learn about the disease and how to have boundaries to protect yourself and your children. Check out these sites.
Overcomers Outreach - www.overcomersoutreach.org/
Drug awareness for parents and employers: www.thestutmangroup.com
The Partnership for a Drug-Free America: www.drugfree.org
Michael's House: http://www.michaelshouse.com/drug-addiction/gateway-drugs-addiction-start/
Foundations Recovery Network: http://www.foundationsrecoverynetwork.com/research-outcomes/